Yesterday I met with my advisor. Yes, I am a college student - and, a very non-traditional one at that. It was such a frustrating meeting. My advisor thinks that no matter what, I need to go to summer school. I told her, numerous times, I couldn't go to summer school this summer...my husband wants me to travel some with him, my youngest son is playing in 4 or 5 rock and roll bands, we have several family commitments and vacations...she just didn't get it! I guess she is just used to dealing with traditional college students (I don't mean that in a bad way) but when you're The Mom and The Wife, you have other things that require your attention! I don't think she realizes how bright, capable and well read I am (a little personal "boat floating"). I don't think she realizes any where near the depth of my passion and knowledge about the issues I choose to be involved in. I am inquisitive and unsatisfied with the "status quo" and so willing to use my time, energy and brain power to effect change.

Then, as she pulled a note pad out of her desk with the logo of the prestigious place I would like to do my internship on it - I told her that I wanted to do my internship there! She just looked at me, finally said something about it being "very competitive." I said that's great. She looked at me again and said "no, really competitive." I told her I had a 3.91 in my college coursework. Then, it dawned on me that maybe what she was really saying is that I'm too "OLD" to be considered for an internship at this place. I got my feelings hurt then I got pissed! Now, I'm just determined. Actually, what I am determined to do is to create my own internship. I met a professor this year who believes strongly in the notion that one person can really make a difference in the world. She is interested in economic development projects for women in developing countries and I have approached her about helping me with a project. She agreed to help and was thrilled at the prospect. I believe that things in my life happen for a reason and I am determined to not let one opportunity slip by!

Seems like my day yesterday was filled with some very thought provoking moments. Caused me to be very introspective and a little pissy! Ah, such is life! I think I will take a little time out this evening to have a glass of wine and maybe just breathe deeply!
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