Closer

I must be hormonal - I'm 53 almost 54 and hormones seem to be the theme of the age. It's like I've been on the verge of tears all day - happy tears, peaceful tears, lonely tears...I didn't know there were so many thoughts and feelings in me that could all come out in only one day. I feel so all over the place! I noticed it today first in yoga. It was such a good practice and felt so good. But a couple of times I found myself thinking "yoga is saving my life." A kind of weird thought. Then as I was driving home, I had turned on the CD player in my car and, surprise, a U2 song came on - "One Step Closer" from HTDAAB:

One Step Closer

I’m ‘round the corner from anything that’s real
I’m across the road from hope
I’m under a bridge in a rip tide
That’s taken everything I call my own

One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing

I’m on an island at a busy intersection
I can’t go forward, I can’t turn back
Can’t see the future
It’s getting away from me
I just watch the tail lights glowing

One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
Knowing, knowing

I’m hanging out to dry
With my old clothes
Finger still red with the prick of an old rose
Well the heart that hurts
Is a heart that beats
Can you hear the drummer slowing

One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
One step closer to knowing
To knowing, to knowing, to knowing

And, it was like the world around me went away...there was no traffic, it was so quiet all around me. Maybe it was just me...it was the weirdest feeling. Just so peaceful...

Had a surprise invitation to see Coldplay last night. Kristi called last night and asked if I wanted to go. I hmmmed and hawed, but I decided to go. I'm glad I did It's been a while since I've been to a concert and apparently I had forgotten how much I love live music! The show was a little loose, a little muddled at times, Chris Martin totally lost it a few times but it was fun to see a band I don't know too much about. I found myself comparing Coldplay to U2...not even close. But they have a little Brian Eno influence and when they go into that full, round, big sound, I love it. It's just so full and satisfying, so rich. Makes me want to see U2!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I slept until 5:30 this morning. A little early to get up so I laid in bed and did some stretches...got up aboout 6:30. Cassie was glad to see me. Bethany had come over to walk her last night while I was out and when I got home Cassie didn't even want to get up. So, I let her sleep...I was going to skip yoga this morning so I could take care of details around the house. I had to mail stuff to Lesley and wanted to make sure I got Joe's card in the mail. He won't get it by tomorrow but after he has such a difficult week maybe getting it late will be okay. I know Mom sent him something, Dad sent him something and he got the humidore that Tim and I sent him.

Will Smith was on Oprah today (I know, I know) and he said something that is really resonating with me...he said he doesn't do anything anymore that doesn't have meaning for him. I'm there, I'm there!